100% Committed

Sunday today...again. Singles ward...again. When I think that I have been in the singles ward for almost 14 years it makes me want to vomit :) I can't believe it's been that long. Anyway, I'm definitely over the singles scene and ready to get married or move on or whatever. I'm forcing myself to stay though because...I don't know, I just am. Anyway, I've been getting a lot of comments lately on how good I look. All from girls of course. My one friend Nick did comment on my butt the other day. I was leaning on the counter with my butt sticking out at Josh's the other night and he walked in and got something and then leaned in close to me and goes, "You've lost a lot of weight and when you lean over and stick you're butt out I just can't restrain myself" or something like that. He was joking of course, but it's nice to get the compliment none the less. I know I'm working hard and losing weight so I can feel good, have a healthy body, and a million other reasons, but let's face it, I'm doing it a lot for the fact that guys will be more interested in me when I weigh less. I haven't seen the fruits of my labors yet...but I just have to have faith that someday someone will be interested :) . I didn't go to weigh in this week. I had to get my treats done for Temple Prep so I didn't have time, but I wouldn't have gone anyway. I haven't done very good that last few weeks. I was up 2 pounds two weeks ago and I think if I would have weighed in on Wed I would have been up...I just couldn't face it so I didn't go. I did however feel more confident after running a few miles with Cindy on Friday night and then going to body combat on Saturday morning. I went to go weigh in after the gym but they were closed so I guess I just go on Wednesday. I'm trying to force myself to track and start doing all the things on the plan I know I should be doing but it's just hard. It's time consuming. I know I lose weight when I do them, but it's still hard. I guess it shows how much I want it. I have a motivation board in my bathroom with saying and pictures and things on it and one says "100% committed" . I want to be 100% committed to changing my life. Not this 25% crap. That's my goal for this week. Be 100% committed. It doesn't mean I won't screw up but I will acknowledge it and move on and keep going. I won't give up. I'll keep you posted!